I wrote a post earlier but it was somewhat depressing that I decided not to post it. Not good to spoil other people’s mood for the new year! I believe in keeping all these solemn moods to myself and not to let others be affected. I am a woman, I am allowed to have mood swings. But that doesn’t mean I should inflict consequences from my mood swings to others!
I think I am rather glad that there are more days in 2007 when I woke up in the mornings, feeling very happy and content than depressing ones.
I am glad, despite losing my things due to two thefts in a week; no one in the family is harmed. The family members stick together till the end to help solve problem – but not before I acted like some paranoid psycho.. but nevertheless, things were solved. Grills were enhanced and locks were changed. The old people in the house are more wary of the impending dangerous era we are living in now, rather than taking things for granted and having this it-won’t-happen-to-me attitude. And I have reasons to get a more powerful lap top to ease my addiction to blogging and facebook! Hehehe!
There were some days in 2007 when I prayed hard and hoped that, by the time I wake up in the morning, I look into the mirror, I like what I see. I never did. In fact, I hope things would be as easy as pressing the ctrl-alt-delete button when it comes to dealing with my long battle of weighty issues. You know, just a start all over again. Or better still, I sometimes wish that I would just sleep and never wake up. Physical attributes in this shallow society is vital. I wonder when I would ever realize that size does matter. Ah well, I hope my ego would not run out till the end of my days. And yes, I minimized time spent looking into the mirror too. Now you know why my hair is always out of place.
Patience is wearing thin in the friendship department. I broke a few friendships this year due to some petty reasons. Hello? I am a woman. I am supposed to be petty. Friends who have been taking me for granted are shown the door, those who belittled my beliefs are thrown off the window and some; for no apparent reasons – we just ran out of topics for conversations or stop talking altogether.
However, I am blessed to have a few friends who still stick to the end and was happy to have met some new kindred spirits this year. Some friends, even if you have spent so many years together, it is still befuddling that you still don’t really know them. I have learned a lesson this year. It’s good not to give too much thoughts and show your over caring nature to friends. Some might deem it as a breach to their privacy. For me, I have come to a point where – if you enjoy my company, I am okay to go out with you. If you don’t have time for me, it’s ok. I hope you keep well.
On the running of our government, I think I would let other bloggers do the dirty job by complaining and complaining. I have stopped whining since I stopped reading the Star a few months ago. I didn’t want to pay money to read rubbish. I can’t wait to cast my vote this coming March.
I had a few conversations with some friends and found out how depressed (and depressing!) they all are. Geez. Some even had to resort to taking prosaics after being unable to cope with stress. Sometimes, we always think we are the worst lot in the world. There are more depressed people out there who cannot handle themselves. What I could do is to offer a listening ear and give them words of encouragements. The rest is up to them. Our destiny is in our own hands. It is up to ourselves and some support from friends to make it through this life. Come on lah! There are so much life to life itself that you have to wake up and see what this life is all about, even if you don’t understand it!
Well, I know this post is still quite depressing but it’s not as bad as the first one drafted.
I will be spending my last few hours of 2007 in the company of some good friends in church. YES. You didn’t read it wrongly. Please. I am not that young anymore to frolic in pubs, rubbing against sweaty bodies and get drunk. Nevertheless, I wish you all a very happy new year 2008. May this New Year bring us endless happiness, good health, peace within, friendships and much, much love.